Archive for April, 2012


So…I knew I should not have said what I did last week…calm? Hell. I am anything BUT calm this week. This last week that just passed brought with it truth, criticism and TEARS…lots of it.

For the past couple of weeks, I have felt like I was in a nice groove….problem is, I am not supposed to feel like I am in a nice ‘groove’. I am supposed to be pushing hard, feeling uncomfortable…working outside of my comfort zone. While my body has been changing, and I am happy with my progress, there is LOTS of work left to be done in the next 7 weeks.

I am thankful for the people who surround me. Pat, who tells me the truth. Regardless. The truth made me sad, then angry, but is ultimately making my PUSH. Sara, who encourages me, and who is really helping me move forward in this journey. She keeps me honest… Malecia, who keeps me SANE, and helps me to feel balanced. Her calmness is reassuring. All my Facebook friends that click ‘like’ when I check in to Goodlife…I know it seems like a stupid silly thing, but it does give me energy. All of you who stop by my ‘Girly Girl in a Boys World’ page to share your fitness goals and experiences with me also gives me tons of energy….and I would be remiss not to mention my incredible hubby and boys who put up with this insanity 🙂

I KNOW what I need to do. I KNOW how to get to my goal. I WILL be amazing and confident on that stage. I will trust, push and do what I am supposed to do to get there. Time to REALLY push. No more shortcuts, no more working inside of my comfort zone…

7 weeks to go.

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Stats

Weight 119.2
Waist 23
Hips 35.5
Calves 14

The last couple of weeks have been calmer. I have had some interesting experiences, most of which have reaffirmed that remaining calm is best. Being stressed serves no other purpose than that. It doesn’t change the outcome, in fact, the only way it changes the outcome is in a negative way.

Workouts are strong, diet is tight. Although time is going by REALLY fast, there is nothing I can do to slow it down…so I will keep plugging at it, and will continue to cut those things out of my diet that I need to…(still hanging on to the odd fruit here and there) but that ends this week. This process continues to blow my mind, as there isn’t a day that goes by that I am not learning something new, and thinking of new goals and challenges.

So, while I may be crazy, 🙂 I will remain calm….feels good….now for my chubby legs to cooperate… 🙂 ‘fat girl….STEP OFF’.

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Stats:

Weight 124.4

Waist 23.5

hips 36.5

calf 14

 

10 weeks to go. The last couple of weeks have brought with it more intensity, and further cleaning of my diet. Feeling like I am a pretty good routine, though temptation and roadblocks are ALL around me…or so it seems.

It doesn’t matter. The results we reap are a direct reflection of the choices we make on a daily basis. I KNOW that my choices are not always perfect….nor will they ever be. I am not super human, and so while I falter from time to time with diet, and with the intensity of my workouts…what I CAN say is that I have not missed one training session even though there were a few days when I threw a silent tantrum on my way there. ;). My goal in the next week is to give up the couple of things that I am clinging on to. I KNOW that once I do…changes in my body will follow quickly…funny how we hang on to ‘comfort’. Change is UN-comfortable, so time for me to let go. Time to feel a little more uncomfortable.

So, I am going to keep on keepin’ on…10 more weeks to PUSH as hard as I possibly can.

Softness and STRENGTH.

Posted: April 3, 2012 in Uncategorized

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Just really reflecting about this journey, and the ‘why’….

This experience is constantly changing. I am learning so much about myself it’s eye opening. I have found another reason why I am excited to compete and actually, it’s not even the competition, it’s the process.

As a woman, we are SO many different things. We are soft, caring, understanding…we wipe noses, give hugs, bake muffins…and all that really good stuff.

One of the things I am realizing is that we are also STRONG. Being strong on the outside, feels right. It feels right to match your outsides to your insides. Being a woman, a mother, a sister, a friend, all take strength.

I am embracing this new ‘aha’. With a smile, and a dumbbell in one arm, and my baby boys in the other.