Archive for November, 2011

Week 8 – Plugging along…

Posted: November 29, 2011 in Uncategorized

Just calculated how much time in total I have to prepare. 36 weeks. I am at the beginning of week 8.

Last week was good. I have made some progress, and have remained the same in some areas…not earth shattering…but I am plugging along. Struggling with a head cold, and so all I want to do is curl up in bed and go to sleep…

My progress so far…

Strength –

Bicep Curl – 25 lbs.

Leg press – 340lbs!! Yup!! And my ass hurts like crazy to prove it…I now understand what a ‘glute/ham’ tie in is…

Military press – still struggling with this one…but I intend to make progress on this one this week and next…

Diet –

Still challenged here…but I am doing pretty good. Eating 5-6 small meals a day…my challenge currently is that I cannot find things that I feel like eating every.3.hours…even with meal planning, it’s still a challenge.

Water – about half and half…some days I can drink 3-4 liters, with the weather getting colder, this is difficult, but I have been drinking tea…not the same, but I am trying!

Pre-post workout meals are going well…eating carbs and protein before and after workouts.

Body fat- Down 8% Body Fat since the beginning of my journey on October 8. Scale +5.

sleep – not so good. This week will also be a challenge, but will try to schedule my sleep time…feeling a bit tired…

For now, I will keep plugging along…working out is a 1-2 hour commitment out of a 24 hour day, this week, I will need to remember this. Motivation is still high, but ‘life’ is challenging this week. I will not use this as an excuse. I will PUSH…and when I don’t feel like it, I will PUSH some more. My goal is within reach.

My weight loss journey is  just that. A journey. It started way before I had kids…in fact, it started once I met my hubby. I’d always been at about 120 lbs, which was comfortable for me….then, I met my hubby Jeff, fell in love, and instantly put on 25 lbs. My very first weigh in at Weight Watchers had me at 143.5 lbs. A number that will forever be etched into memory :)…this was approximately 18 years ago…

Once I got to my goal weight, I still struggled but managed to maintain a healthy weight…except during and after pregnancy. I’m very efficient at putting on weight, and with my first son, tipped the scales at 202. I don’t think I have ever said that aloud…but I now wear it proudly, for we are much more than what we weigh…a revelation that is taking me a lifetime to learn….

That's me on the right, at about 170 lbs..

Since having our 3 boys, I manage to maintain a weight at around 120-125 lbs …I think my body likes it there….though secretly, I wish the scales would show me a different number…forever trying to lose 5. 🙂

At goal weight...I think I was at around 119 here...

Having goals are really important for me. So I have recently decided to enter a figure competition in June, 2012. I am really excited, and equally scared, but I am up for it!

What’s challenging about this journey is the change in mindset, and the way that I have had to look at food…eating to fuel workouts, the delicate balance of carbs vs. protein vs. fat…eating to grow muscle, as opposed to counting calories, or points, to lose weight. During this process, the scale seems to be my nemasis, so I have decided to take other measures to keep myself in check. I’ve just taken my measurements, and will keep doing so periodically throughout this newest phase of my journey…which is definitely one of self discovery.

Working out with a different focus feels new, and has given me renewed energy. I would spend hours upon hours doing cardio, with very little strength training, and this is a new way of thinking…a new way of moving my body…to take it to the next level.

When I first got on the scale after having my 3rd baby boy… I won’t lie. At 5’1, weighing in at 170 lbs, I felt very discouraged having to lose some 50+ lbs…but I did it. There are definite highs and lows to any journey…taking two steps forward and one step back. I can only hope that at the end of this journey, I can post another picture, and feel equally proud to see what has happened, and how I have transformed not only my body, but my mind….

Anything worth having is worth fighting for…this journey is proving to be way more mentally challenging than physical, but I am ready for the fight, and ready for a new reality…on June 16th, I hope to have a new picture to post below. In the meantime, i’ll be putting in the work…let’s see what happens!

Moving forward…

Posted: November 21, 2011 in Uncategorized

Last week was challenging…but like a friend said to me this week ‘if every day were like an inspirational quote, it wouldn’t be a challenge now would it.’ Very true. 

Today is a new day, a new week, and a fresh start.

For those of you who know me, you know that weight has always been a challenge for me. This week brings it’s own new set of challenges…watching the numbers on the scale move upwards…I tried to mentally prepare myself for this, but apparently, I am not fully prepared.

My trainer and coach talked me off the ledge this morning, and while I do feel a bit discouraged, I am committed to following the process, with a few ‘tweaks’ along the way.

I am going to start posting weekly on Mondays, so that I can keep better track of my progress and thoughts..I’m sure looking back once I get to my goal, will be really interesting… 🙂

Here are my goals:

Strength:

Bicep curl: Currently curling 25 goal is to curl 30 lbs by Nov 30

Leg press: Currently pressing 180 lbs. Goal to press 200 by Nov 30

Military press: Currently at 15 lbs. Goal to press 3 x 12 reps at 17.5 (this is a tough one)

 

Diet

Absolutely no deviating from the plan for the next 7 days. 

4 liters of water daily

Pre-post workout meals (need to be religious with this one)

 

Sleep

7-8 hours nightly.

 

I am holding myself accountable to these goals for the week, and will post progress.

I am thankful for a strong body and mind. I am learning through this process, that my body is not what will prove a challenge, but my mind….will need to add meditation into this whole process…

 

“Change is inevitable. How we deal with change is what makes us happy or miserable.” Not sure who said this, but I have heard several different variations of it… that being said, even though change is inevitable, it is for me, very difficult.

Training for this competition is different than anything I have ever done.

The clock says 4:50. This morning, I wake up tired. Even though I do want to go to the gym, something inside of me is trying to sabotage my efforts…

I go downstairs. the clock says 4:53 am…a plethora of obscenities fly through my head as I drink my protein shake. My body is feeling the effects of the training, and while on some days this makes me happy, today, it does not.

Besides the training, there are some personal things in my life that are changing too. I have  absolutely no control over these things, nor am I terribly happy about them, but there is nothing I can do, or should do. I need to learn to accept these changes with a big smile and a positive attitude…instead, I find my self inwardly stomping my feet in protest, and digging in my heels. I KNOW that I need to let go…but it is difficult…

The clock reads 5:25, and I am walking on the treadmill as tears are streaming down my face. Yup. I must look like an idiot…I look up at the ceiling, trying to get the tears to slow down, but they don’t. They continue to flow….so I let them. I stay on the treadmill a little longer than normal this morning, and break into an all out run…I feel frustration, anger and fear. Change is scary. Change is inevitable.

I want this. Scratch that. I NEED this, as much as I need to breathe.

The time is 5:50. Time to work. I train harder today than I ever before. Am I going to resist change? Or embrace it. I choose to embrace it.

The time is 6:55. I feel like I am changing. Inside and out. I will not give up. Today, there was no blood, (like the time I dropped a medicine ball on my face) but definitely, sweat, and sadly…tears…

 

Pictures…

Posted: November 14, 2011 in Uncategorized

Pictures say a thousand words…

On October 8th, I took my first pictures to mark the beginning of my journey to figure. I truly do love my body. It took me a long time to get here, because I kept thinking that this, or that could be better…and yes, while it can, those are not the reasons why I love my body.

I love it, because it works. I love it because I can use my arms to squeeze my babies. I love it because when I work out, I feel strong. I love it because it allows me the opportunity to live life to the fullest.

On November 6, my trainer asked me to take some pictures for her, so that she could develop a new workout plan for me. I must admit, I felt a little bit nervous to take the pictures, especially since I know that I do not always see my body for what it is…

After 4 weeks, I can see progress! I must admit I was surprised, but pleasantly so. I have not always had positive ‘self image’ (whatever that is) but I am learning daily to be thankful for the good things, and to acknowledge how wonderful God truly created us. There are no mistakes.

I am going to work hard, these next 5+ months…and we’ll see what happens…

Figure Competition.

Posted: November 7, 2011 in Uncategorized

My secret is out! I am going to be competing next year, in my first figure competition.

Last night, I attended the National Capital Fit Day Bodybuilding competitions. What an exciting, inspiring and SCARY event to watch. This was such a learning experience for me, in so many ways.

The first thing I learned is that you really need to be prepared to compete. Emotionally, mentally, and of course physically.

I learned the difference between being ‘wet’ vs. ‘dry’. Man. I am telling you, these athletes really push their bodies to extremes. Such dedication.

I learned (most importantly for me) that it is important to have a goal…to know why you want to compete, and to hang onto that goal…especially when Halloween happens, when Christmas happens, and when I drive by McDonalds craving those oh so delicious salty french fries…mmmm…Thankfully, our local McD’s is currently closed for renovations… 🙂

Listening to the competitors share why they decided to compete was one of the most interesting parts for me. Moms, women wanting to transform their bodies, some of the woman said they wanted to compete for their self esteem, some wanted to prove to themselves that they could do it, and others wanted to bring their fitness to the next level. There were so many people from so many different walks of life, most with VERY different body types, shapes and sizes, and each one deserved a standing ovation. To go out on stage, after preparing for such an extensive period of time, wearing heels and a bikini IS scary…I could even see some of the competitors shaking…which will probably be me… 🙂

I am so curious to see where this journey will lead…if I had any doubts before, I don’t anymore. My timeline (April) seems really aggressive based on the competitors that I have seen, but I will do my best to get there in time! Thankfully, I am inspired by many people that I have met, and am meeting along the way…

I wish I could take this feeling I have today, and bottle it for rainy days…:)

So, I finally decided to tell the world (well, Facebook and Twitter) that I am training for a figure competition in April. I have been training for a little over a month, but telling the ‘world’ makes it real…and scary.

Being a ‘girly girl’ and living in a house full of guys, certainly is interesting. My boys and hubby are fit, and lean, which I love. I want the same. Not to look like a boy of course, but for my lean muscles to show.

Competing has been a dream for me for a long time…and I thought it was about time to move the dream to become reality. I have done a lot of research, and have found friends willing to help along the way…

This is really exciting, and I hope you’ll follow me! I have NO idea what this journey will be like, but I am happy to be able to share it with you…stay tuned!!